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Editor’s Note: The Curious Case of Benjamin Button is
a short story written by F. Scott Fitzgerald and first published in Colliers
Magazine on May 27, 1922. It was subsequently anthologized in his book Tales of
the Jazz Age, which is occasionally published as “The Curious Case of Benjamin
Button and Other Jazz Age Stories.” Development rights to the story were held
for years by the late Hollywood mogul Ray Stark. Stark retained those rights
until his death in 2004, when they were purchased from his estate and used for
an adaptation of the story as the 2008 film of the same name, directed by David
Fincher. Due to copyright expiration laws, rights to the story deferred to the
public domain in 2010.
Chapter I
As long ago as 1860 it was the proper thing to be born at home. At
present, so I am told, the high gods of medicine have decreed that the first
cries of the young shall be uttered upon the anesthetic air of a hospital,
preferably a fashionable one. So young Mr. and Mrs. Roger Button were 50 years
ahead of style when they decided, one day in the summer of 1860, that their
first baby should be born in a hospital. Whether this anachronism had any
bearing upon the astonishing history I am about to set down will never be
known.
***
AUTHOR. Francis
Scott Key Fitzgerald was an American author of novels
and short stories, whose works are the paradigmatic
writings of the
Jazz Age, a term he coined. He is widely regarded as
one
of the greatest American writers of the 20th century.
***
I shall tell you what
occurred, and let you judge for yourself. The Roger Buttons held an enviable
position, both social and financial, in ante-bellum Baltimore. They were
related to the This Family and the That Family, which, as every Southerner
knew, entitled them to membership in that enormous peerage which largely
populated the Confederacy. This was their first experience with the charming
old custom of having babies--Mr. Button was naturally nervous. He hoped it
would be a boy so that he could be sent to Yale College in Connecticut, at
which institution Button himself had been known for four years by the somewhat
obvious nickname of "Cuff."
On the September morning
consecrated to the enormous event he arose nervously at six am dressed himself,
adjusted an impeccable stock, and hurried forth through the streets of
Baltimore to the hospital, to determine whether the darkness of the night had
borne in new life upon its bosom.
When he was approximately
100 yards from the Maryland Private Hospital for Ladies and Gentlemen he saw
Dr. Keene, the family physician, descending the front steps, rubbing his hands
together with a washing movement--as all doctors are required to do by the
unwritten ethics of their profession.
Roger Button, the president
of Roger Button & Co., Wholesale Hardware, began to run toward Dr. Keene
with much less dignity than was expected from a Southern gentleman of that
picturesque period. "Dr. Keene!" he called. "Oh, Dr.
Keene!"
The doctor heard him, faced
around, and stood waiting, a curious expression settling on his harsh,
medicinal face as Button drew near.
"What happened?"
demanded Button, as he came up in a gasping rush. "What was it? How is
she? A boy? Who is it? What---"
"Talk sense!" said
Dr. Keene sharply, He appeared somewhat irritated.
"Is the child
born?" begged Button.
Dr. Keene frowned.
"Why, yes, I suppose so--after a fashion." Again he threw a curious
glance at Button.
"Is my wife all
right?"
"Yes."
"Is it a boy or a
girl?"
"Here now!" cried
Dr. Keene in a perfect passion of irritation," I'll ask you to go and see
for yourself. Outrageous!" He snapped the last word out in almost one
syllable, then he turned away muttering: "Do you imagine a case like this
will help my professional reputation? One more would ruin me--ruin
anybody."
"What's the
matter?" demanded Button appalled. "Triplets?"
"No, not
triplets!" answered the doctor cuttingly. "What's more, you can go
and see for yourself. And get another doctor. I brought you into the world, young
man, and I've been physician to your family for 40 years, but I'm through with
you! I don't want to see you or any of your relatives ever again!
Good-bye!"
Then he turned sharply, and
without another word climbed into his carriage, which was waiting at the
curbstone, and drove severely away.
Button stood there upon the
sidewalk, stupefied and trembling from head to foot. What horrible mishap had
occurred? He had suddenly lost all desire to go the hospital--it was with the
greatest difficulty that, a moment later, he forced himself to mount the steps
and enter the front door.
A nurse was sitting behind a
desk in the opaque gloom of the hall. Swallowing his shame, Button approached
her.
"Good-morning,"
she remarked, looking up at him pleasantly.
"Good-morning. I--I am
Mr. Button."
At this a look of utter
terror spread itself over girl's face. She rose to her feet and seemed about to
fly from the hall, restraining herself only with the most apparent difficulty.
"I want to see my
child," said Button.
The nurse gave a little
scream. "Oh--of course!" she cried hysterically. "Upstairs.
Right upstairs. Go--up!"
She pointed the direction,
and Button, bathed in cool perspiration, turned falteringly, and began to mount
to the second floor. In the upper hall he addressed another nurse who
approached him, basin in hand. "I'm Mr. Button," he managed to
articulate. "I want to see my----"
Clank! The basin clattered
to the floor and rolled in the direction of the stairs. Clank! Clank! It began
a methodical decent as if sharing in the general terror which this gentleman
provoked.
"I want to see my
child!" Button almost shrieked. He was on the verge of collapse.
Clank! The basin reached the
first floor. The nurse regained control of herself, and threw Button a look of
hearty contempt.
"All right, Mr.
Button," she agreed in a hushed voice. "Very well! But if you knew
what a state it's put us all in this morning! It's perfectly outrageous! The
hospital will never have a ghost of a reputation after----"
"Hurry!" he cried
hoarsely. "I can't stand this!"
"Come this way, then,
Mr. Button."
He dragged himself after
her. At the end of a long hall they reached a room from which proceeded a
variety of howls--indeed, a room which, in later parlance, would have been known
as the "crying-room." They entered.
"Well," gasped
Button, "which is mine?"
"There!" said the
nurse.
Button's eyes followed her
pointing finger, and this is what he saw. Wrapped in a voluminous white
blanket, and partly crammed into one of the cribs, there sat an old man
apparently about 70 years of age. His sparse hair was almost white, and from
his chin dripped a long smoke-coloured beard, which waved absurdly back and
forth, fanned by the breeze coming in at the window. He looked up at Button
with dim, faded eyes in which lurked a puzzled question.
"Am I mad?"
thundered Button, his terror resolving into rage. "Is this some ghastly
hospital joke?
"It doesn't seem like a
joke to us," replied the nurse severely. "And I don't know whether
you're mad or not--but that is most certainly your child."
The cool perspiration
redoubled on Button's forehead. He closed his eyes, and then, opening them,
looked again. There was no mistake--he was gazing at a man of threescore and
ten--a baby of threescore and ten, a baby whose feet hung over the sides of the
crib in which it was reposing.
The old man looked placidly from
one to the other for a moment, and then suddenly spoke in a cracked and ancient
voice. "Are you my father?" he demanded.
Button and the nurse started
violently.
"Because if you
are," went on the old man querulously, "I wish you'd get me out of
this place--or, at least, get them to put a comfortable rocker in here."
"Where in God's name
did you come from? Who are you?" burst out Mr. Button frantically.
"I can't tell you
exactly who I am," replied the querulous whine, "because I've only
been born a few hours--but my last name is certainly Button."
"You lie! You're an
impostor!"
The old man turned wearily
to the nurse. "Nice way to welcome a new-born child," he complained
in a weak voice. "Tell him he's wrong, why don't you?"
"You're wrong. Mr. Button,"
said the nurse severely. "This is your child, and you'll have to make the
best of it. We're going to ask you to take him home with you as soon as
possible-some time to-day."
"Home?" repeated
Button incredulously.
"Yes, we can't have him
here. We really can't, you know?"
"I'm right glad of
it," whined the old man. "This is a fine place to keep a youngster of
quiet tastes. With all this yelling and howling, I haven't been able to get a
wink of sleep. I asked for something to eat"--here his voice rose to a
shrill note of protest--"and they brought me a bottle of milk!"
Button, sank down upon a
chair near his son and concealed his face in his hands. "My heavens!"
he murmured, in an ecstasy of horror. "What will people say? What must I
do?"
"You'll have to take
him home," insisted the nurse--"immediately!"
A grotesque picture formed
itself with dreadful clarity before the eyes of the tortured man--a picture of
himself walking through the crowded streets of the city with this appalling
apparition stalking by his side.
"I can't. I
can't," he moaned.
People would stop to speak
to him, and what was he going to say? He would have to introduce this--this
septuagenarian: "This is my son, born early this morning." And then
the old man would gather his blanket around him and they would plod on, past
the bustling stores, the slave market--for a dark instant Button wished
passionately that his son was black--past the luxurious houses of the
residential district, past the home for the aged....
"Come! Pull yourself
together," commanded the nurse.
"See here," the
old man announced suddenly, "if you think I'm going to walk home in this
blanket, you're entirely mistaken."
"Babies always have
blankets."
With a malicious crackle the
old man held up a small white swaddling garment. "Look!" he quavered.
"This is what they had ready for me."
"Babies always wear
those," said the nurse primly.
"Well," said the
old man, "this baby's not going to wear anything in about two minutes.
This blanket itches. They might at least have given me a sheet."
"Keep it on! Keep it
on!" said Button hurriedly. He turned to the nurse. "What'll I
do?"
"Go down town and buy
your son some clothes."
Mr. Button's son's voice
followed him down into the hall: "And a cane, father. I want to have a
cane."
Mr. Button banged the outer
door savagely....
Chapter II
"Good-morning," Mr.
Button said nervously, to the clerk in the Chesapeake Dry Goods Company.
"I want to buy some clothes for my child."
"How old is your child,
sir?"
"About six hours,"
answered Button, without due consideration.
"Babies' supply
department in the rear."
"Why, I don't
think--I'm not sure that's what I want. It's--he's an unusually large-size
child. Exceptionally--ah large."
"They have the largest
child's sizes."
"Where is the boys'
department?" inquired Mr. Button, shifting his ground desperately. He felt
that the clerk must surely scent his shameful secret.
"Right here."
"Well----" He
hesitated. The notion of dressing his son in men's clothes was repugnant to him.
If, say, he could only find a very large boy's suit, he might cut off that long
and awful beard, dye the white hair brown, and thus manage to conceal the
worst, and to retain something of his own self-respect--not to mention his
position in Baltimore society.
But a frantic inspection of
the boys' department revealed no suits to fit the new-born Button. He blamed
the store, of course---in such cases it is the thing to blame the store.
"How old did you say
that boy of yours was?" demanded the clerk curiously.
"He's--16."
"Sorry, I thought you
said six hours. You'll find the youths' department in the next aisle."
Button turned miserably
away. Then he stopped, brightened, and pointed his finger toward a dressed
dummy in the window display. "There!" he exclaimed. "I'll take
that suit, out there on the dummy."
The clerk stared.
"Why," he protested, "that's not a child's suit. At least it is,
but it's for fancy dress. You could wear it yourself!"
"Wrap it up,"
insisted his customer nervously. "That's what I want."
The astonished clerk obeyed.
Back at the hospital Button
entered the nursery and almost threw the package at his son. "Here's your
clothes," he snapped out.
The old man untied the
package and viewed the contents with a quizzical eye.
"They look sort of
funny to me," he complained, "I don't want to be made a monkey
of--"
"You've made a monkey
of me!" retorted Button fiercely. "Never you mind how funny you look.
Put them on--or I'll--or I'll spank you." He swallowed uneasily at the
penultimate word, feeling nevertheless that it was the proper thing to say.
"All right,
father"--this with a grotesque simulation of filial respect--"you've
lived longer; you know best. Just as you say."
As before, the sound of the
word "father" caused Button to start violently.
"And hurry."
"I'm hurrying,
father."
When his son was dressed
Button regarded him with depression. The costume consisted of dotted socks,
pink pants, and a belted blouse with a wide white collar. Over the latter waved
the long whitish beard, drooping almost to the waist. The effect was not good.
"Wait!"
Button seized a hospital
shears and with three quick snaps amputated a large section of the beard. But
even with this improvement the ensemble fell far short of perfection. The
remaining brush of scraggly hair, the watery eyes, the ancient teeth, seemed
oddly out of tone with the gaiety of the costume. Button, however, was
obdurate--he held out his hand. "Come along!" he said sternly.
His son took the hand
trustingly. "What are you going to call me, dad?" he quavered as they
walked from the nursery--"just 'baby' for a while? till you think of a
better name?"
Button grunted. "I
don't know," he answered harshly. "I think we'll call you
Methuselah."
Chapter III
Even after the new addition to the Button family had had his hair cut
short and then dyed to a sparse unnatural black, had had his face shaved so
close that it glistened, and had been attired in small-boy clothes made to
order by a flabbergasted tailor, it was impossible for Button to ignore the
fact that his son was a sorry excuse for a first family baby. Despite his aged
stoop, Benjamin Button--for it was by this name they called him instead of by
the appropriate but invidious Methuselah--was five feet eight inches tall. His
clothes did not conceal this, nor did the clipping and dyeing of his eyebrows
disguise the fact that the eyes under--were faded and watery and tired. In
fact, the baby-nurse who had been engaged in advance left the house after one
look, in a state of considerable indignation.
But Button persisted in his
unwavering purpose. Benjamin was a baby, and a baby he should remain. At first
he declared that if Benjamin didn't like warm milk he could go without food
altogether, but he was finally prevailed upon to allow his son bread and
butter, and even oatmeal by way of a compromise. One day he brought home a
rattle and, giving it to Benjamin, insisted in no uncertain terms that he
should "play with it," whereupon the old man took it with a weary
expression and could be heard jingling it obediently at intervals throughout
the day.
There can be no doubt,
though, that the rattle bored him, and that he found other and more soothing
amusements when he was left alone. For instance, Button discovered one day that
during the preceding week he somehow had smoked more cigars than ever before--a
phenomenon, which was explained a few days later when, entering the nursery
unexpectedly, he found the room full of faint blue haze and Benjamin, with a
guilty expression on his face, trying to conceal the butt of a dark Havana.
This, of course, called for a severe spanking, but Mr. Button found that he
could not bring himself to administer it. He merely warned his son that he
would "stunt his growth."
Nevertheless he persisted in
his attitude. He brought home lead soldiers, he brought toy trains, he brought
large pleasant animals made of cotton, and, to perfect the illusion which he
was creating--for himself at least--he passionately demanded of the clerk in
the toy-store whether "the paint would come off the pink duck if the baby
put it in his mouth." But, despite all his father's efforts, Benjamin
refused to be interested. He would steal down the back stairs and return to the
nursery with a volume of the Encyclopedia Britannica, over which he would pore
through an afternoon, while his cotton cows and his Noah's ark were left
neglected on the floor. Against such a stubbornness Mr. Button's efforts were
of little avail.
The sensation created in
Baltimore was, at first, prodigious. What the mishap would have cost the
Buttons and their kinsfolk socially cannot be determined, for the outbreak of
the Civil War drew the city's attention to other things. A few people who were
unfailingly polite racked their brains for compliments to give to the parents--and
finally hit upon the ingenious device of declaring that the baby resembled his
grandfather, a fact which, due to the standard state of decay common to all men
of 70, could not be denied. Mr. and Mrs. Roger Button were not pleased, and
Benjamin's grandfather was furiously insulted.
Benjamin, once he left the
hospital, took life as he found it. Several small boys were brought to see him,
and he spent a stiff-jointed afternoon trying to work up an interest in tops
and marbles--he even managed, quite accidentally, to break a kitchen window
with a stone from a sling shot, a feat which secretly delighted his father.
Thereafter Benjamin
contrived to break something every day, but he did these things only because
they were expected of him, and because he was by nature obliging.
When his grandfather's
initial antagonism wore off, Benjamin and that gentleman took enormous pleasure
in one another's company. They would sit for hours, these two, so far apart in
age and experience, and, like old cronies, discuss with tireless monotony the
slow events of the day. Benjamin felt more at ease in his grandfather's
presence than in his parents'--they seemed always somewhat in awe of him and,
despite the dictatorial authority they exercised over him, frequently addressed
him as "Mr."
He was as puzzled as anyone
else at the apparently advanced age of his mind and body at birth. He read up
on it in the medical journal, but found that no such case had been previously
recorded. At his father's urging he made an honest attempt to play with other
boys, and frequently he joined in the milder games--football shook him up too
much, and he feared that in case of a fracture his ancient bones would refuse
to knit.
When he was five he was sent
to kindergarten, where he was initiated into the art of pasting green paper on
orange paper, of weaving coloured maps and manufacturing eternal cardboard
necklaces. He was inclined to drowse off to sleep in the middle of these tasks,
a habit which both irritated and frightened his young teacher. To his relief
she complained to his parents, and he was removed from the school. The Roger
Buttons told their friends that they felt he was too young.
By the time he was 12 years
old his parents had grown used to him. Indeed, so strong is the force of custom
that they no longer felt that he was different from any other child--except
when some curious anomaly reminded them of the fact. But one day a few weeks
after his 12th birthday, while looking in the mirror, Benjamin made, or thought
he made, an astonishing discovery. Did his eyes deceive him, or had his hair
turned in the dozen years of his life from white to iron-gray under its
concealing dye? Was the network of wrinkles on his face becoming less
pronounced? Was his skin healthier and firmer, with even a touch of ruddy
winter colour? He could not tell. He knew that he no longer stooped, and that
his physical condition had improved since the early days of his life.
"Can it be----?"
he thought to himself, or, rather, scarcely dared to think.
He went to his father.
"I am grown," he announced determinedly. "I want to put on long
trousers."
His father hesitated.
"Well," he said finally, "I don't know. Fourteen is the age for
putting on long trousers--and you are only 12."
"But you'll have to
admit," protested Benjamin, "that I'm big for my age."
His father looked at him
with illusory speculation. "Oh, I'm not so sure of that," he said.
"I was as big as you when I was 12."
This was not true-it was all
part of Roger Button's silent agreement with himself to believe in his son's
normality.
Finally a compromise was
reached. Benjamin was to continue to dye his hair. He was to make a better
attempt to play with boys of his own age. He was not to wear his spectacles or
carry a cane in the street. In return for these concessions he was allowed his
first suit of long trousers.
Chapter IV
Of the life of Benjamin Button between his 12th and 21 year I intend to
say little. Suffice to record that they were years of normal ungrowth. When
Benjamin was 18 he was erect as a man of 50; he had more hair and it was of a
dark gray; his step was firm, his voice had lost its cracked quaver and
descended to a healthy baritone. So his father sent him up to Connecticut to
take examinations for entrance to Yale College. Benjamin passed his examination
and became a member of the freshman class.
On the third day following
his matriculation he received a notification from Mr. Hart, the college
registrar, to call at his office and arrange his schedule. Benjamin, glancing
in the mirror, decided that his hair needed a new application of its brown dye,
but an anxious inspection of his bureau drawer disclosed that the dye bottle
was not there. Then he remembered--he had emptied it the day before and thrown
it away.
He was in a dilemma. He was
due at the registrar's in five minutes. There seemed to be no help for it--he
must go as he was. He did.
"Good-morning,"
said the registrar politely. "You've come to inquire about your son."
"Why, as a matter of
fact, my name's Button----" began Benjamin, but Mr. Hart cut him off.
"I'm very glad to meet
you, Mr. Button. I'm expecting your son here any minute."
"That's me!" burst
out Benjamin. "I'm a freshman."
"What!?"
"I'm a freshman."
"Surely you're
joking."
"Not at all."
The registrar frowned and
glanced at a card before him. "Why, I have Mr. Benjamin Button's age down
here as 18."
"That's my age,"
asserted Benjamin, flushing slightly.
The registrar eyed him
wearily. "Now surely, Mr. Button, you don't expect me to believe
that."
Benjamin smiled wearily.
"I am 18," he repeated.
The registrar pointed
sternly to the door. "Get out," he said. "Get out of college and
get out of town. You are a dangerous lunatic."
"I am 18."
Mr. Hart opened the door.
"The idea!" he shouted. "A man of your age trying to enter here
as a freshman. Eighteen years old, are you? Well, I'll give you 18 minutes to
get out of town."
Benjamin Button walked with
dignity from the room, and half a dozen undergraduates, who were waiting in the
hall, followed him curiously with their eyes. When he had gone a little way he
turned around, faced the infuriated registrar, who was still standing in the door-way,
and repeated in a firm voice: "I am 18 years old."
To a chorus of titters which
went up from the group of undergraduates, Benjamin walked away.
But he was not fated to
escape so easily. On his melancholy walk to the railroad station he found that
he was being followed by a group, then by a swarm, and finally by a dense mass
of undergraduates. The word had gone around that a lunatic had passed the entrance
examinations for Yale and attempted to palm himself off as a youth of 18. A
fever of excitement permeated the college. Men ran hatless out of classes, the
football team abandoned its practice and joined the mob, professors' wives with
bonnets awry and bustles out of position, ran shouting after the procession,
from which proceeded a continual succession of remarks aimed at the tender
sensibilities of Benjamin Button.
"He must be the
wandering Jew!"
"He ought to go to prep
school at his age!"
"Look at the infant
prodigy!" "He thought this was the old men's home."
"Go up to
Harvard!"
Benjamin increased his gait,
and soon he was running. He would show them! He would go to Harvard, and then
they would regret these ill-considered taunts!
Safely on board the train
for Baltimore, he put his head from the window. "You'll regret this!"
he shouted.
"Ha-ha!" the
undergraduates laughed. "Ha-ha-ha!" It was the biggest mistake that
Yale College had ever made....
Chapter V
In 1880 Benjamin Button was 20 years old, and he signalised his birthday
by going to work for his father in Roger Button & Co., Wholesale Hardware.
It was in that same year that he began "going out socially"--that is,
his father insisted on taking him to several fashionable dances. Roger Button
was now 50, and he and his son were more and more companionable--in fact, since
Benjamin had ceased to dye his hair (which was still grayish) they appeared
about the same age, and could have passed for brothers.
One night in August they got
into the carriage attired in their full-dress suits and drove out to a dance at
the Shevlins' country house, situated just outside of Baltimore. It was a
gorgeous evening. A full moon drenched the road to the lustreless colour of
platinum, and late-blooming harvest flowers breathed into the motionless air
aromas that were like low, half-heard laughter. The open country, carpeted for
rods around with bright wheat, was translucent as in the day. It was almost
impossible not to be affected by the sheer beauty of the sky--almost.
"There's a great future
in the dry-goods business," Roger Button was saying. He was not a
spiritual man--his aesthetic sense was rudimentary.
"Old fellows like me
can't learn new tricks," he observed profoundly. "It's you youngsters
with energy and vitality that have the great future before you."
Far up the road the lights
of the Shevlins' country house drifted into view, and presently there was a
sighing sound that crept persistently toward them--it might have been the fine
plaint of violins or the rustle of the silver wheat under the moon.
They pulled up behind a
handsome carriage whose passengers were disembarking at the door. A lady got
out, then an elderly gentleman, then another young lady, beautiful as sin.
Benjamin started; an almost chemical change seemed to dissolve and recompose
the very elements of his body. A rigour passed over him, blood rose into his
cheeks, his forehead, and there was a steady thumping in his ears. It was first
love.
The girl was slender and
frail, with hair that was ashen under the moon and honey-coloured under the
sputtering gas-lamps of the porch. Over her shoulders was thrown a Spanish
mantilla of softest yellow, butterflied in black; her feet were glittering
buttons at the hem of her bustled dress.
Roger Button leaned over to
his son. "That," he said, "is young Hildegarde Moncrief, the
daughter of General Moncrief."
Benjamin nodded coldly.
"Pretty little thing," he said indifferently. But when the negro boy
had led the buggy away, he added: "Dad, you might introduce me to
her."
They approached a group, of
which Miss Moncrief was the center. Reared in the old tradition, she curtsied
low before Benjamin. Yes, he might have a dance. He thanked her and walked
away--staggered away.
The interval until the time
for his turn should arrive dragged itself out interminably. He stood close to
the wall, silent, inscrutable, watching with murderous eyes the young bloods of
Baltimore as they eddied around Hildegarde Moncrief, passionate admiration in
their faces. How obnoxious they seemed to Benjamin; how intolerably rosy! Their
curling brown whiskers aroused in him a feeling equivalent to indigestion.
But when his own time came,
and he drifted with her out upon the changing floor to the music of the latest
waltz from Paris, his jealousies and anxieties melted from him like a mantle of
snow. Blind with enchantment, he felt that life was just beginning.
"You and your brother
got here just as we did, didn't you?" asked Hildegarde, looking up at him
with eyes that were like bright blue enamel.
Benjamin hesitated. If she
took him for his father's brother, would it be best to enlighten her? He
remembered his experience at Yale, so he decided against it. It would be rude
to contradict a lady; it would be criminal to mar this exquisite occasion with
the grotesque story of his origin. Later, perhaps. So he nodded, smiled,
listened, was happy.
"I like men of your
age," Hildegarde told him. "Young boys are so idiotic. They tell me
how much champagne they drink at college, and how much money they lose playing
cards. Men of your age know how to appreciate women."
Benjamin felt himself on the
verge of a proposal--with an effort he choked back the impulse. "You're
just the romantic age," she continued--"fifty. Twenty-five is too
wordly-wise; 30 is apt to be pale from overwork; 40 is the age of long stories
that take a whole cigar to tell; 60 is--oh, sixty is too near 70; but 50 is the
mellow age. I love 50."
Fifty seemed to Benjamin a
glorious age. He longed passionately to be 50.
"I've always
said," went on Hildegarde, "that I'd rather marry a man of 50 and be
taken care of than many a man of 30 and take care of him."
For Benjamin the rest of the
evening was bathed in a honey-coloured mist. Hildegarde gave him two more dances,
and they discovered that they were marvellously in accord on all the questions
of the day. She was to go driving with him on the following Sunday, and then
they would discuss all these questions further.
Going home in the carriage
just before the crack of dawn, when the first bees were humming and the fading
moon glimmered in the cool dew, Benjamin knew vaguely that his father was
discussing wholesale hardware.
".... And what do you
think should merit our biggest attention after hammers and nails?" the
elder Button was saying.
"Love," replied
Benjamin absent-mindedly.
"Lugs?" exclaimed
Roger Button, "Why, I've just covered the question of lugs."
Benjamin regarded him with
dazed eyes just as the eastern sky was suddenly cracked with light, and an
oriole yawned piercingly in the quickening trees.
Chapter VI
When, six months later, the engagement of Miss Hildegarde Moncrief to Mr.
Benjamin Button was made known (I say "made known," for General
Moncrief declared he would rather fall upon his sword than announce it), the
excitement in Baltimore society reached a feverish pitch. The almost forgotten
story of Benjamin's birth was remembered and sent out upon the winds of scandal
in picaresque and incredible forms. It was said that Benjamin was really the
father of Roger Button, that he was his brother who had been in prison for 40
years, that he was John Wilkes Booth in disguise--and, finally, that he had two
small conical horns sprouting from his head.
The Sunday supplements of
the New York papers played up the case with fascinating sketches which showed
the head of Benjamin Button attached to a fish, to a snake, and, finally, to a
body of solid brass. He became known, journalistically, as the Mystery Man of
Maryland. But the true story, as is usually the case, had a very small
circulation.
However, every one agreed
with General Moncrief that it was "criminal" for a lovely girl who
could have married any beau in Baltimore to throw herself into the arms of a
man who was assuredly 50. In vain Mr. Roger Button published his son's birth
certificate in large type in the Baltimore
Blaze. No one believed it. You had only to look at Benjamin and see.
On the part of the two
people most concerned there was no wavering. So many of the stories about her
fiance were false that Hildegarde refused stubbornly to believe even the true
one. In vain General Moncrief pointed out to her the high mortality among men
of 50--or, at least, among men who looked 50; in vain he told her of the
instability of the wholesale hardware business. Hildegarde had chosen to marry
for mellowness, and marry she did.
Chapter VII
In one particular, at least, the friends of Hildegarde Moncrief were
mistaken. The wholesale hardware business prospered amazingly. In the 15 years
between Benjamin Button's marriage in 1880 and his father's retirement in 1895,
the family fortune was doubled--and this was due largely to the younger member
of the firm.
Needless to say, Baltimore
eventually received the couple to its bosom. Even old General Moncrief became
reconciled to his son-in-law when Benjamin gave him the money to bring out his
History of the Civil War in 20 volumes, which had been refused by nine
prominent publishers.
In Benjamin himself 15 years
had wrought many changes. It seemed to him that the blood flowed with new
vigour through his veins. It began to be a pleasure to rise in the morning, to
walk with an active step along the busy, sunny street, to work untiringly with
his shipments of hammers and his cargoes of nails. It was in 1890 that he
executed his famous business coup: he brought up the suggestion that all nails
used in nailing up the boxes in which nails are shipped are the property of the
shippee, a proposal which became a statute, was approved by Chief Justice
Fossile, and saved Roger Button and Company, Wholesale Hardware, more than 600
nails every year.
In addition, Benjamin
discovered that he was becoming more and more attracted by the gay side of
life. It was typical of his growing enthusiasm for pleasure that he was the
first man in the city of Baltimore to own and run an automobile. Meeting him on
the street, his contemporaries would stare enviously at the picture he made of
health and vitality.
"He seems to grow
younger every year," they would remark. And if old Roger Button, now 65
years old, had failed at first to give a proper welcome to his son he atoned at
last by bestowing on him what amounted to adulation.
And here we come to an
unpleasant subject which it will be well to pass over as quickly as possible.
There was only one thing that worried Benjamin Button; his wife had ceased to
attract him.
At that time Hildegarde was
a woman of 35, with a son, Roscoe, 14 years old. In the early days of their
marriage Benjamin had worshipped her. But, as the years passed, her
honey-coloured hair became an unexciting brown, the blue enamel of her eyes
assumed the aspect of cheap crockery--moreover, and, most of all, she had
become too settled in her ways, too placid, too content, too anemic in her
excitements, and too sober in her taste. As a bride it had been she who had
"dragged" Benjamin to dances and dinners--now conditions were
reversed. She went out socially with him, but without enthusiasm, devoured
already by that eternal inertia which comes to live with each of us one day and
stays with us to the end.
Benjamin's discontent waxed
stronger. At the outbreak of the Spanish-American War in 1898 his home had for
him so little charm that he decided to join the army. With his business influence
he obtained a commission as captain, and proved so adaptable to the work that
he was made a major, and finally a lieutenant-colonel just in time to
participate in the celebrated charge up San Juan Hill. He was slightly wounded,
and received a medal.
Benjamin had become so
attached to the activity and excitement of army life that he regretted to give
it up, but his business required attention, so he resigned his commission and
came home. He was met at the station by a brass band and escorted to his house.
Chapter VIII
Hildegarde, waving a large silk flag, greeted him on the porch, and even
as he kissed her he felt with a sinking of the heart that these three years had
taken their toll. She was a woman of 40 now, with a faint skirmish line of gray
hairs in her head. The sight depressed him.
Up in his room he saw his
reflection in the familiar mirror--he went closer and examined his own face
with anxiety, comparing it after a moment with a photograph of himself in
uniform taken just before the war.
"Good Lord!" he
said aloud. The process was continuing. There was no doubt of it--he looked now
like a man of 30. Instead of being delighted, he was uneasy--he was growing
younger. He had hitherto hoped that once he reached a bodily age equivalent to
his age in years, the grotesque phenomenon which had marked his birth would
cease to function. He shuddered. His destiny seemed to him awful, incredible.
When he came downstairs
Hildegarde was waiting for him. She appeared annoyed, and he wondered if she
had at last discovered that there was something amiss. It was with an effort to
relieve the tension between them that he broached the matter at dinner in what
he considered a delicate way.
"Well," he
remarked lightly, "everybody says I look younger than ever."
Hildegarde regarded him with
scorn. She sniffed. "Do you think it's anything to boast about?"
"I'm not
boasting," he asserted uncomfortably. She sniffed again. "The
idea," she said, and after a moment: "I should think you'd have
enough pride to stop it."
"How can I?" he
demanded.
"I'm not going to argue
with you," she retorted. "But there's a right way of doing things and
a wrong way. If you've made up your mind to be different from everybody else, I
don't suppose I can stop you, but I really don't think it's very
considerate."
"But, Hildegarde, I
can't help it."
"You can too. You're
simply stubborn. You think you don't want to be like any one else. You always
have been that way, and you always will be. But just think how it would be if
every one else looked at things as you do--what would the world be like?"
As this was an inane and
unanswerable argument Benjamin made no reply, and from that time on a chasm
began to widen between them. He wondered what possible fascination she had ever
exercised over him.
To add to the breach, he
found, as the new century gathered headway, that his thirst for gaiety grew
stronger. Never a party of any kind in the city of Baltimore but he was there,
dancing with the prettiest of the young married women, chatting with the most
popular of the debutantes, and finding their company charming, while his wife,
a dowager of evil omen, sat among the chaperons, now in haughty disapproval,
and now following him with solemn, puzzled, and reproachful eyes.
"Look!" people
would remark. "What a pity! A young fellow that age tied to a woman of 45.
He must be 20 years younger than his wife." They had forgotten--as people
inevitably forget--that back in 1880 their mammas and papas had also remarked
about this same ill-matched pair.
Benjamin's growing
unhappiness at home was compensated for by his many new interests. He took up
golf and made a great success of it. He went in for dancing: in 1906 he was an
expert at "The Boston," and in 1908 he was considered proficient at the
"Maxine," while in 1909 his "Castle Walk" was the envy of
every young man in town.
His social activities, of
course, interfered to some extent with his business, but then he had worked
hard at wholesale hardware for 25 years and felt that he could soon hand it on
to his son, Roscoe, who had recently graduated from Harvard.
He and his son were, in
fact, often mistaken for each other. This pleased Benjamin--he soon forgot the
insidious fear which had come over him on his return from the Spanish-American
War, and grew to take a naive pleasure in his appearance. There was only one
fly in the delicious ointment--he hated to appear in public with his wife.
Hildegarde was almost 50, and the sight of her made him feel absurd.
Chapter IX
One September day in 1910--a few years after Roger Button & Co.,
Wholesale Hardware, had been handed over to young Roscoe Button--a man,
apparently about twenty years old, entered himself as a freshman at Harvard
University in Cambridge. He did not make the mistake of announcing that he would
never see fifty again, nor did he mention the fact that his son had been
graduated from the same institution ten years before.
He was admitted, and almost
immediately attained a prominent position in the class, partly because he
seemed a little older than the other freshmen, whose average age was about 18.
But his success was largely
due to the fact that in the football game with Yale he played so brilliantly,
with so much dash and with such a cold, remorseless anger that he scored seven
touchdowns and 14 field goals for Harvard, and caused one entire eleven of Yale
men to be carried singly from the field, unconscious. He was the most
celebrated man in college.
Strange to say, in his third
or junior year he was scarcely able to "make" the team. The coaches
said that he had lost weight, and it seemed to the more observant among them
that he was not quite as tall as before. He made no touchdowns--indeed, he was
retained on the team chiefly in hope that his enormous reputation would bring
terror and disorganisation to the Yale team.
In his senior year he did
not make the team at all. He had grown so slight and frail that one day he was
taken by some sophomores for a freshman, an incident which humiliated him
terribly. He became known as something of a prodigy--a senior who was surely no
more than 16--and he was often shocked at the worldliness of some of his
classmates. His studies seemed harder to him--he felt that they were too
advanced. He had heard his classmates speak of St. Midas's, the famous
preparatory school, at which so many of them had prepared for college, and he
determined after his graduation to enter himself at St. Midas's, where the
sheltered life among boys his own size would be more congenial to him.
Upon his graduation in 1914
he went home to Baltimore with his Harvard diploma in his pocket. Hildegarde
was now residing in Italy, so Benjamin went to live with his son, Roscoe. But
though he was welcomed in a general way there was obviously no heartiness in
Roscoe's feeling toward him--there was even perceptible a tendency on his son's
part to think that Benjamin, as he moped about the house in adolescent moodiness,
was somewhat in the way. Roscoe was married now and prominent in Baltimore
life, and he wanted no scandal to creep out in connection with his family.
Benjamin, no longer persona
grata with the debutantes and younger college set, found himself left much done,
except for the companionship of three or four 15-year-old boys in the
neighbourhood. His idea of going to St. Midas's school recurred to him.
"Say," he said to
Roscoe one day, "I've told you over and over that I want to go to prep
school."
"Well, go, then,"
replied Roscoe shortly. The matter was distasteful to him, and he wished to
avoid a discussion.
"I can't go
alone," said Benjamin helplessly. "You'll have to enter me and take
me up there."
"I haven't got
time," declared Roscoe abruptly. His eyes narrowed and he looked uneasily
at his father. "As a matter of fact," he added, "you'd better
not go on with this business much longer. You better pull up short. You
better--you better"--he paused and his face crimsoned as he sought for
words--"you better turn right around and start back the other way. This
has gone too far to be a joke. It isn't funny any longer. You--you behave
yourself!"
Benjamin looked at him, on
the verge of tears.
"And another
thing," continued Roscoe, "when visitors are in the house I want you
to call me 'Uncle'--not 'Roscoe,' but 'Uncle,' do you understand? It looks
absurd for a boy of 15 to call me by my first name. Perhaps you'd better call
me 'Uncle' all the time, so you'll get used to it."
With a harsh look at his
father, Roscoe turned away.
Chapter X
At the termination of this interview, Benjamin wandered dismally upstairs
and stared at himself in the mirror. He had not shaved for three months, but he
could find nothing on his face but a faint white down with which it seemed
unnecessary to meddle. When he had first come home from Harvard, Roscoe had
approached him with the proposition that he should wear eye-glasses and
imitation whiskers glued to his cheeks, and it had seemed for a moment that the
farce of his early years was to be repeated. But whiskers had itched and made
him ashamed. He wept and Roscoe had reluctantly relented.
Benjamin opened a book of
boys' stories, The Boy Scouts in Bimini Bay, and began to read. But he found
himself thinking persistently about the war. America had joined the Allied
cause during the preceding month, and Benjamin wanted to enlist, but, alas, 16
was the minimum age, and he did not look that old. His true age, which was 57,
would have disqualified him, anyway.
There was a knock at his door,
and the butler appeared with a letter bearing a large official legend in the
corner and addressed to Mr. Benjamin Button. Benjamin tore it open eagerly, and
read the enclosure with delight. It informed him that many reserve officers who
had served in the Spanish-American War were being called back into service with
a higher rank, and it enclosed his commission as brigadier-general in the
United States army with orders to report immediately.
Benjamin jumped to his feet
fairly quivering with enthusiasm. This was what he had wanted. He seized his
cap, and ten minutes later he had entered a large tailoring establishment on
Charles Street, and asked in his uncertain treble to be measured for a uniform.
"Want to play soldier,
sonny?" demanded a clerk casually.
Benjamin flushed. "Say!
Never mind what I want!" he retorted angrily. "My name's Button and I
live on Mt. Vernon Place, so you know I'm good for it."
"Well," admitted
the clerk hesitantly, "if you're not, I guess your daddy is, all
right."
Benjamin was measured, and a
week later his uniform was completed. He had difficulty in obtaining the proper
general's insignia because the dealer kept insisting to Benjamin that a nice
V.W.C.A. badge would look just as well and be much more fun to play with.
Saying nothing to Roscoe, he
left the house one night and proceeded by train to Camp Mosby, in South
Carolina, where he was to command an infantry brigade. On a sultry April day he
approached the entrance to the camp, paid off the taxicab which had brought him
from the station, and turned to the sentry on guard.
"Get some one to handle
my luggage!" he said briskly.
The sentry eyed him
reproachfully. "Say," he remarked, "where you goin' with the
general's duds, sonny?"
Benjamin, veteran of the
Spanish-American War, whirled upon him with fire in his eye, but with, alas, a
changing treble voice.
"Come to
attention!" he tried to thunder; he paused for breath--then suddenly he
saw the sentry snap his heels together and bring his rifle to the present.
Benjamin concealed a smile of gratification, but when he glanced around his
smile faded. It was not he who had inspired obedience, but an imposing
artillery colonel who was approaching on horseback.
"Colonel!" called
Benjamin shrilly.
The colonel came up, drew
rein, and looked coolly down at him with a twinkle in his eyes. "Whose
little boy are you?" he demanded kindly.
"I'll soon darn well
show you whose little boy I am!" retorted Benjamin in a ferocious voice.
"Get down off that horse!"
The colonel roared with
laughter.
"You want him, eh,
general?"
"Here!" cried
Benjamin desperately. "Read this." And he thrust his commission
toward the colonel. The colonel read it, his eyes popping from their sockets.
"Where'd you get this?" he demanded, slipping the document into his own
pocket. "I got it from the Government, as you'll soon find out!"
"You come along with me," said the colonel with a peculiar look.
"We'll go up to headquarters and talk this over. Come along." The
colonel turned and began walking his horse in the direction of headquarters.
There was nothing for Benjamin to do but follow with as much dignity as
possible--meanwhile promising himself a stern revenge. But this revenge did not
materialise. Two days later, however, his son Roscoe materialised from
Baltimore, hot and cross from a hasty trip, and escorted the weeping general,
sans uniform, back to his home.
Chapter XI
In 1920 Roscoe Button's first child was born. During the attendant
festivities, however, no one thought it "the thing" to mention, that
the little grubby boy, apparently about 10 years of age who played around the
house with lead soldiers and a miniature circus, was the new baby's own
grandfather.
No one disliked the little
boy whose fresh, cheerful face was crossed with just a hint of sadness, but to
Roscoe Button his presence was a source of torment. In the idiom of his
generation Roscoe did not consider the matter "efficient." It seemed
to him that his father, in refusing to look 60, had not behaved like a
"red-blooded he-man"--this was Roscoe's favourite expression--but in
a curious and perverse manner. Indeed, to think about the matter for as much as
a half an hour drove him to the edge of insanity. Roscoe believed that
"live wires" should keep young, but carrying it out on such a scale
was--was--was inefficient. And there Roscoe rested.
Five years later Roscoe's
little boy had grown old enough to play childish games with little Benjamin
under the supervision of the same nurse. Roscoe took them both to kindergarten
on the same day, and Benjamin found that playing with little strips of coloured
paper, making mats and chains and curious and beautiful designs, was the most
fascinating game in the world. Once he was bad and had to stand in the
corner--then he cried--but for the most part there were gay hours in the
cheerful room, with the sunlight coming in the windows and Miss Bailey's kind
hand resting for a moment now and then in his tousled hair.
Roscoe's son moved up into
the first grade after a year, but Benjamin stayed on in the kindergarten. He
was very happy. Sometimes when other tots talked about what they would do when
they grew up a shadow would cross his little face as if in a dim, childish way
he realised that those were things in which he was never to share.
The days flowed on in
monotonous content. He went back a third year to the kindergarten, but he was
too little now to understand what the bright shining strips of paper were for.
He cried because the other boys were bigger than he, and he was afraid of them.
The teacher talked to him, but though he tried to understand he could not
understand at all.
He was taken from the
kindergarten. His nurse, Nana, in her starched gingham dress, became the centre
of his tiny world. On bright days they walked in the park; Nana would point at
a great gray monster and say "elephant," and Benjamin would say it
after her, and when he was being undressed for bed that night he would say it
over and over aloud to her: "Elyphant, elyphant, elyphant." Sometimes
Nana let him jump on the bed, which was fun, because if you sat down exactly right
it would bounce you up on your feet again, and if you said "Ah" for a
long time while you jumped you got a very pleasing broken vocal effect.
He loved to take a big cane
from the hat-rack and go around hitting chairs and tables with it and saying:
"Fight, fight, fight." When there were people there the old ladies
would cluck at him, which interested him, and the young ladies would try to
kiss him, which he submitted to with mild boredom. And when the long day was
done at 5 p.m he would go upstairs with Nana and be fed on oatmeal and nice
soft mushy foods with a spoon.
There were no troublesome
memories in his childish sleep; no token came to him of his brave days at
college, of the glittering years when he flustered the hearts of many girls.
There were only the white, safe walls of his crib and Nana and a man who came
to see him sometimes, and a great big orange ball that Nana pointed at just
before his twilight bed hour and called "sun." When the sun went his
eyes were sleepy--there were no dreams, no dreams to haunt him.
The past--the wild charge at
the head of his men up San Juan Hill; the first years of his marriage when he
worked late into the summer dusk down in the busy city for young Hildegarde
whom he loved; the days before that when he sat smoking far into the night in
the gloomy old Button house on Monroe Street with his grandfather-all these had
faded like unsubstantial dreams from his mind as though they had never been. He
did not remember.
He did not remember clearly
whether the milk was warm or cool at his last feeding or how the days
passed--there was only his crib and Nana's familiar presence. And then he
remembered nothing. When he was hungry he cried--that was all. Through the
noons and nights he breathed and over him there were soft mumblings and
murmurings that he scarcely heard, and faintly differentiated smells, and light
and darkness.
Then it was all dark, and
his white crib and the dim faces that moved above him, and the warm sweet aroma
of the milk, faded out altogether from his mind.
The End.
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